Rabu, 19 Oktober 2011

I Quit

oh my oh my oh my..

Its been 5 years of hard work, especially just sitting in the tiny cubicle, wondering how or what or when the next project be; and will it effect my 'vitamin B'.

Then it happens, I feels like the whole universe telling me to stop, and reconsider the path i'm choosing. My baby getting older, and started to hit people, just to see what reaction he'll get; my mom sick; and the ultimate, my husband ask me to quit.

Living in my parent house, is not good for our mind. They're nice, but sometime, they forget that we're adult, who capable of making decision. My mom went through some kind of depression, and it get worse after some paranormal consultation (ever heard of 'kua mia'?).

My baby starting to understand words and action-reaction. The maid always smile even when he hit her; so he's starting to hit to make other people smile. The day i found out about this, i realize he's getting smarter, and i doubt that nanny & maid can educate him right.

We have our own house. But, we don't want to leave our son just with maid and nanny. I'm considering day care, but still, i work quite far away from home. when will my baby see me? only at night?

So, I quit my job.

Now.. things don't fall into places yet. There's a lot of thing to worry about, the housework, our finance, my sanity (well, taking care a toddler is a lot of work), our bills, bills and bills.

It's a miracle if we can survive 2012 smoothly. But boy, I really hope so.

now i just need to repeat psalm 23 in my head, over and over;

The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.