Sabtu, 30 Oktober 2010

Be My Self

I wish this life had game rules so I know how to play it right.

When I was young, I'm passive, patient, and invisible. I felt like no one take me seriously back then.
So I slowly learnt how to be tougher, skeptical, and build a fighter version of me. Making a wall, so I couldn't get hurt easily. It didn't seem to work either, coz it drive people away from me.
Then I tried to be in between, which is not only making it worse, but also making me questioning who I really am.

I'm a twenty-something mother, who still need a self actualization - or whatever the term is.

I think no matter how tough I wanna be, there's still a part of me, who always questioning every step I make, a super-melancholy me, who always see the world from a grey eyeglasses.
How am I suppose to live this life? How can I touch other people live? How can I meet someone who can touch mine, who make me decide who I want to be?
They always say "be your self"; And all I wanna do is shout "which one?".

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Senin, 19 Juli 2010

Blue eyes doodle



Find the 'howto' here

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Rabu, 16 Juni 2010

Status Quo Trap

The lesson:
1. The Anchoring Trap: Over-Relying on First Thoughts
2. The Status Quo Trap: Keeping on Keeping On
If this job is only a choice, will I choose this over others? No.
3. The Sunk Cost Trap: Protecting Earlier Choices
Wonder if this theory can be applied on choosing a house.. hmm..
4. The Confirmation Trap: Seeing What You Want to See


The web explain it well on each point. check it out.

I really considering to quit my job earlier next year. Wonder which career suit me well.
I wish someone/something could give me a sign, like holly in the 'PS I love You' movie.

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Senin, 14 Juni 2010

Resep Wo Tie

percobaan ketiga-bentuk semakin ok, tapi lupa pakai minyak wijen

Well, setelah beberapa lama absen dari dunia masak-memasak, akhirnya kini muncul kembali keinginan yang tidak biasa... untuk bikin wo tie. (alasan sebenarnya: kalau beli jadi, mahal sih).

Bahan2:

isi:
1 ons daging babi giling (ganti dengan ayam untuk versi halal)
1 ons daging udang giling
1 butir telur
garam, micin/gula secukupnya
daun bawang (potong2)
bawang putih (cincang)
minyak wijen

kulit pangsit / kulit gyoza siap pakai

sambal:
sambal sedap wangi
bawang putih

1. campur semua bahan isi, aduk2
2. bersihkan kulit siap pakai dari tepung (penting!!! pengalaman: percobaan pertama gagal karena rasa kulitnya yang aneh. Padahal kan katanya siap pakai ya, harusnya yah, benar2 tinggal buka bungkus, trus langsung pakai dong, ternyata.... cih penipuan!)
3. masukkan isi kira2 satu sendok ke dalam kulit, bentuk sesuai keinginan
4. rebus wotie (sampai kira2 sudah matang)
5. angkat, goreng hanya sisi bawah nya saja (bisa juga goreng kering, tergantung permintaan pelanggan)
6. untuk sambal, hanya perlu diencerkan sedikit dan ditambah bawang putih cincang
7. sajikan dan sikaat!

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Selasa, 25 Mei 2010

Wheel of (un)Fortune


I miss my life when I was:
* Getting busy planning a wedding
* Study for exam
* Planning a vacation
Anything with deadline and REAL result.
I'm willing to do anything to get out of this hamster wheel...

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Selasa, 27 April 2010

What I Really Want Right Now, a Massage



This will do

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Senin, 19 April 2010

Dress



rencananya mau coba jahit di pasar pagi mangga dua. ongkos jahit sudah berikut bahan.

yang hunting sendiri cuma perlu cari tali, dan batu imitasi di bagian kerah.
semoga bisa dipake buat bumil :P

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